Would you sleep with a bi-sexual?

But please don't give up dear walls,

Don't let the ceiling fall-

When you belong

to a song,

Salty Eyes.

You belong.

Crappy internet is crappy.

On to other news...

If you haven't heard of TED talks then you MUST go to youtube immediently and watch some of it. Here, I will post a link to a good one: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iG9CE55wbtY

I have become obsessed with watching these. Along with Vsauce =probably the most interesting videos ever... And they are pieced together so that they are quick and easy to watch. Just what my brain loves.

Like I said in my last post, I am striving to become the most knowledgeable I can be. However, I also want to learn quickly, not spent years reading and researching. Okay, maybe that makes me lazy but to me, I am almost 20 and need to hurry up with this whole 'understanding the world' phase I am in.

I love my roommate allyson... only one month left till I move. I am going to miss living with her. Hopefully me and Danny get alone just as well. Already hit a few snags. Damn you money, for being just a big FREAKING deal and coming between friends!

Personal Note:

Like my title? Currently some dude is trying to 'get' with me and I am 99% sure he is into dudes. Which upsets me for two reasons. 1.) Do I remind him of a man and that is why he likes me? Now I am paranoid about it. 2.) I cannot even get any type of ego boost from this intrigue because of reason #1. Damn!

(Yes, I enjoy getting an ego boost from men taking an interest in me because IT DOESNT HAPPEN OFTEN and everyone has their own things to get them through the day.)

Lastly: I partied my face off last Saturday. Got trashed. Got sober. Remembered everything. Lets do this again sometime....

Content

I do believe
In everything you see.

As far as I know this very well may be the happiest days of my life.
No, I am not in love just yet. Still wishing...
But I am very happy for the little town I have found to live in and my friends that reside here as well. I have everything I could want here:

1. a car
2.a job
3. a trailer
4. a roommate I get along with
5. a surplus of people my age
6. few enemies
7. A bank AND savings account with money in it
8. Endless edges of knowlege at my fingertips.

Ah, if only I felt like going to ten, but I am too lazy.
Yes, I just put a desposit on a trailer with my best gay friend ever. I was terrified at first because yes, it is a trailer and I despise them. But I am getting more and more excited about it so hopfully that rolls over well.

Recently took a trip to Linocoln to watch the sister run. Mom is now kinda sorta in a relationship. Dad went off the deep end, and Molly never fails to amaze me how much like me she really is.

I am so passionate about gaining knowledge it might almost be a sin. My current goal and wish more than anything is to be highly intelligent. Since we are either born one way or the other I must unfortunetly keep dreaming since I was born perfectly average. However, this won't keep me from lusting over knowledge. (By the way, Youtube never fails to amaze me with its videos... the things I've been learning from there! Wow!)

It's my first day off since last Sunday, and I have done absolutly nothing all day! Depsite my dire situation to get shit done I just can't work without building up a bit of pressure!

And oh yeah, I am itching to write again! I feel like it is the one thing that might allow me to stand out from other people. Although I am terrified that my writing is complete shit I am trying to throw myself out there and continue to do it. Recently I finished a short story and mustered up the courage to ask people I closley know to read it. So far everyone 'loves it' but I am fairly certain they are blinded since they like me as a person.

Anywho, this is a blog, not a novel! Just going to wrap things up by saying that I am in love with the boy in the bookstore. He's a nerd but I picture myself in his arms when I fall asleep at night. Maybe one day I'll creep him out and let him know that. For now... dreaming with my eyes open.


Personal Note:

None... everything said was already personal ;)