Prime of Your Life

And somewhere maybe someday,

Maybe somewhere far away,

I'll find a second little person

who will look at me and say:

"I know you"

I want to do something big.

No really.

I've watched thousands of you-tube videos where the famous person in them was once an ordinary college student like me. Now they make appearances on TV. Or Fred, for example, was also from Nebraska and now he has his own MOVIE.

I've just read the book "Waiter Rant" about a average joe working as a waiter writing down all his waiting experiences and produced a successful blog and book series.

And I've watched, through facebook updates, a girl I graduated high school with begin and now successfully own a senior-photo taken business. (She also is now hired doing side jobs, taking pictures at events for Usher and Black Eyed Peas)

I know I'm in the prime of my life right now, and if I keep putting up with crap from walmart I'm going to piss my life away hoping that the magical day when I finally make enough money will come and I'll finally be able to pursue other things.

Well I need to face the music and understand that there is never going to be enough money. It doesn't matter if I pick up, god forbid, a THIRD job and blame bad card life chose to throw at me. I finally got the balls to quit walmart and next Friday will be my last day. (I AM SO EXCITED!)

This calls for a celebration. Not only because I am gaining a part of my life back, but because I have never intentionally quit/got fired from a job before. My last jobs I had to leave because I was moving.

Anyway, back to do something BIG. Maybe right a book, or start a business managing something cool and original. Because really, if the Fred from youtube can do it, anyone who really wants to can. That's just the thing. They have to really want to.

That't the tricky part for me as well. You see, I think too much. That's what I've pinned it down to. I don't like to take risks because I've seen failure. I'm terrified of it. I think too much about everything and then I miss out on everything. Starting something big means diving head first into my greatest fear: failure. And if I don't stop trying to be wise and taking advice, I'll miss out on life completely!

That's why I hate the idea of advice. If you don't so something yourself you'll miss out on many opportunities. I don't think anyone ever truly takes advice. The human soul sometimes just has to know. When you mom tells you not to date that boy and you don't (you'll always wonder). And if a wise quote tells advices you, "Look before you leap" you'll never hit the perfect time to tell a funny joke because you'll be too busy wondering 'will I offend someone, or maybe this might be out of line, or what if no one finds this funny." Pretty soon you're the the queer with his mouth open thinking he had something to say but missed his chance.

Well, this blog is sufficiently long and scattered and pointless enough to come to an end. To wrap everything up, I want to do something big and somewhat noticeable, and I don't think advice is worth but perhaps something to consider. Wish me luck.

Personal Note:

Like I said, I quit walmart. That's the biggest news.

I experienced my first one-night stand after finishing an entire bottle of malibu passion fruit by myself in under an hour. Woke up in a very hot guy's arms heartbroken that I let myself become such a whore. We work together. Needless to say, it's the hottest piece of gossip for the week at pizza hut. I try to avoid him at all costs. Avoidance is key, and cracking a joke if I have to.

My walmart csm stalker keeps asking me on date after date after date since I keep turning him down. I guess I'll give him a shot if he's really that into me. Kinda freaks me out though.

Erin is my new best work friend. She's everything I hoped a person could be. Weird, but smart. Odd, but interesting. She smokes a lot of pot but that doesn't bother me at all. (Secretly, I really want to try some. I just think it would be an expensive habit.) Anyway, I hope to keep the friendship fire aflame.