I'll run away with you
We can build a goldmine.
We'll cross the sierra child,
I'll be the truth for you
So maybe my hard work doesn't go unnoticed after all.
I was told by my work hero today that I am an inspiration to her.
My work hero was the girl who trained me at pizza hut several months ago. She doesn't take crap from anyone. She is a very strong person, cares about both the company and the customer, and believes in doing things right; not cutting corners.
She told me today that she truly admires me and my work ethics. I have good morels, she says. And she has told all her friends about me. 'My mother knows your name, I talk about you so much.' she says.
My other manger, standing behind me completely agreed. 'You inspire me too' she said without question.
I was so flattered I really had no idea what to say. In fact, I just felt my face get hot. I wondered if I should I crack a joke? Laugh it off? I thanked them and told them I'm not inspiring, I'm just crazy. They told me they would of exploded by now if they were me.
I told the truth and told them I had angry dreams.
Let me tell you -it was the funniest thing they had ever heard. We laughed and laughed.
But in all honesty, I do. I have very angry dreams. I dreamed I got so angry at my mom I started choking her. Just wrapped hands around her heck and shook her back and forth. I will get in arguments with my sisters in my dreams and be so furiously angry I will cry with rage. I break things in my dream. I slap/hit/punch/claw family members, and hurt myself too. And it's becoming a pretty common dream as well.
My reasoning for all this? Back when I worked a lot of hours at home I took a lot of my anger out on my family. I picked fights. I took offence to everything. I would smart-mouth or yell at my parents. And now that they are 500 miles away, I have no one to take my anger out on. So I resort to a non-exhistant family in my head.
I am truly messed up. Haha.
Hours this week: 33-walmart 22-pizza hut
School starts next week! Yikes!
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